Tonight the little person and I are learning about proportions and measuring and chemical reactions via the wide and wonderful world of baking. Sort of, kind of. Really we just cut up some break and bake cookies and popped them into the oven. While we waited we whipped up the second batch of home made pretzels of the week. If I’m honest, the babe was much more interested in lining the measuring spoons up from biggest to smallest, explaining to me that one was the mommy, the daddy, the sister, the cousin, the grandma, the grandpa, the granny, the Ty Ty, than he was in the science behind the yeast in the dough fermenting to cause it to rise. He used the spoons to carve little faces and canyons into the dough and to make it into volcanoes. I rolled the dough between my finger tips and wrapped it into pretzel shapes while the bitty person dug through the utensils drawer to find the pointiest items to wave in front of his face and terrify me with.
This night of baking felt so much like all my other nights and days and weeks and years now of parenting. I always have this master plan of perfect parenthood, and always the little person decides what’s more fun and does that along with the master plan and beside the master plan and on top of it too. If I’m honest, it makes it more fun. If I’m honest his independence and creativity fills me with this feeling that is kind of like pride and kind of like terror. Parenting, right?
We also spent the weekend over at Lucas Nursery, I had the idea that we could purchase one of the caterpillars they have there, take him home, and Jude could watch it turn into a butterfly. Biology! When we got there, Jude in true fashion spent most of his time collecting gravel and putting it into a can to shake and terrorize the other horitculture shoppers while he ran in circles around the citrus trees. The nursery turned out to have zero caterpillars, all sold out to other mothers and teachers in gleeful anticipation of the painted lady butterflies that they would harbor. Luckily, we spotted a juicy green guy on the tomato plants upon entering, and in desperation clipped the stalk that he was on, along with a tomato or two, and high-tailed it to the car.
It turns out that this caterpillar is called a tomato hornworm. It also turns out that this guy turns into a marvelous moth, about as juicy as the pupa stage, and is commonly called the “hawkmoth”. Fancy that. I admit that I was disappointed at this discovery. I looked at the pillar differently. I scowled at it. Maybe it was some innate human repulsion over the night winged beast, maybe it was disappointment that the hawkmoth’s beauty lies in it’s thick body, that looks almost as if it’s covered by birds feathers, rather than the ornate and flashy colors of the butterfly, maybe it’s society. I don’t know. Now the green beast circles it’s enclosure in some strange gut sloshing dance and I watch it with a kind of horrified awe. I can only hope that the small person finds glee in his transformation and is not disappointed in his lack of pomp.